Joined table tennis..
Quit badminton le..
I kinda regret.. Coz its my favourite sport.. But i don't want her to feel awkward.. So quit..
Then Mr koh thought i joined badminton for fun then quit for fun also.. Think wadever he like..
Siyu joining also leh..
Lols.. Saw her finding siva also..
Haiz.. Today mood quite good..
Though still got some sadness..
Why am i so reluctant to let go..
_l_8:00 PM
Hmm, today is very boring as usual.. But during the last few minutes of english, mdm azizah showed us a very funny clip..
Then after school was about to go home but was called back for decoration.. Then stayed in class till 5.30.. Was disturbing Xavier all the way.. Lols.. He act cute leh..
Then waited and waited for a miracle but in the end also don't have.. Forget it..
Zzz.. Off to do maths homework..
I don't want mdm see to punish me again.. I don't want to be sent out again.. Lols..
Tomorrow got geography le..
Sian got test.. Why sec 3 every week also got test de?
Hahas.. Either sad or happy i still have to live.. So why not smile everyday.. You already have a stead le.. So I shouldn't be thinking too much anymore.. No matter wad, jiayous..
Lols..
Labels: Shattered
_l_6:14 PM
Just reach home..
Today was so so..
After school went to eat with rayner.. Then went to northpoint to buy black paper for finley..
Diao.. When we reached class we saw xavier alone in class..
So i slam the door and hide inside 2/8..
Xavier was like shouting 'stop it!'
In a very gay manner..
Lols.. After that went home..
Damn tired..
SMILE. . .
Mixed emotions..
Don't know how to explain..
Forget it..
_l_5:53 PM
Just came back from yss..
Damn tired today..
Went to northpoint, then back to yss.. To decorate class room..
There is a question bothering me..
Ng yl said that i became cocky..
He said i was humble in the past..
Haiz.. Disappointing to hear this from him.. Just because i was jealous of those sec 4 people that like her.. I had to be a real fcker.. The greatest killing machine is the word 'jealous'..
I really want to be myself again..
The real me..
The one that keep saying forget it.. Hahas.. My old phrase came out again..
Why should i be sad for a flirt anyway..
Her lovers are everything to her..
I nearly forget that this is the bloody reason that we broke..
Yea.. Forget it..
_l_5:50 PM
Recovered 90 percent of my strength.. Tomorrow is monday le.. School sucks..
For some reasons i realize i didn't laugh for 3 days..
I gone over it..
Hey, i'm wrong, i admit it..
I had finished complaining to god that my life sucks.. Its time for me to move on.. Yea.. The way world revolves.. Just take it as a beautiful dream that aren't meant to be.. Lols..
Grown older le.. Hehe..
At least i loved someone in my life.. No regrets..
_l_3:30 PM
Mood not very good for two days..
Yesterday went to NYP with yh and rayner..
Then 5oclock aunt call..
Rushed home, then went to
pasir ris to bbq..
Then my cousins and their stead were there..
Including their friend..
Then there was a funny joker called Ray.. Diao..
About 11 plus took cab to my cousin house.. Then he took his car key, drive me home..
Damn scary when he is drivin..
Almost hit the bus, black honda, and a motorbike.. Cnt blame him..
Just gt his license only..
The reason for my mood now is becoz of her..
When her bloody senior crowd around i was damn hot..
Hot as in beating up people..
But, i can't.. Sure expel..
I'm a real loser.. She must laugh so loudly, happily..
I'm so fck up.. Jealous, the first time i had this feeling..
_l_10:14 AM
Photos up there..
Hmm.. Today very weak..
Due to flu.. Then still gt 3 test..
No choice nv take mc..
Ytd went to see doc..
Ask for extra powerful dose of flu med.. Bt still nt working..
Just nw in eng class somemore glare at mdm azizah.. My attitude gone fck up again.. Im a crap..
Mr koh changed our sitting arrangement again.. Sure goin to sit in the front again.. Confirm..
Just now wanted to ask gina something.. But forgot.. Damn it..
Japanese word..
3 months le.. Still so sad.. Diao..
And angry also.. Especially when she . . . . .
Somemore for her had to quit my cca, endure scolding from mr koh..
Find cca..
I'm going crazy.. Wanted to talk to you badly.. But.. Things aren't meant to be i guess..
_l_6:24 PM
Just showered..
Diao.. K..
Today got some misunderstanding with vanessa..
Now okay le.. Friends better than enemy.. Then i sort of miss sec two life.. Stress free..
I miss disturbing mr ng in english lesson.. I miss irritating mr zainal.. I miss mr wong.. I miss her..
Thats all left in 2009..
Things that can't be back, forever.. Happy endings are just fairytale.. Shattered heart can't be fixed back.. The urgh to talk to you is killing me..
_l_5:54 PM
Today is the worst day..
Maths - punished,
English - nagged by mdm azizah..
Cdl - group with sp,xj and vanessa.. Kicked by her 5 times.. For? Idk..
Phy - stand at the back for 2 periods, then being nagged by Mrs yeo..
Mt - mr ng check our bag coz something was stolen..
Aft sch said something stupid..
Sry.. Nw okay le ba..
Really stupid to say that.. Diao..
None of it is gd today..
The wall that seperates us everyday seems to be there, unbreakable..
I gave up trying, and bow down to my fate, for the first time..
_l_2:20 PM
Hmm,
Maths - Copy notes
Geog - Ms Lathika talking about her being very hardworking..
Music - Hit the table to create music but Mrs Teo came to complain..
Recess - 2nd storey to talk to auntie..
English - Sent down to buy red ring file..
Mt - Listening to Miss Wang talking bout her past.. Lols..
Phy - General office made an announcement to our class mistaking us for 2/8.. Looking for gordon i think.. Then Mr Koh told me to inform them.. Diao.. Saw AhGua yeung thr.. Fck you.. Kpkb for wad? I know you hate me coz last year i we gt conflict.. But grow up.. Personally i dislike you..
_l_7:25 PM
Just reached home..
Went to Chongpang met rayner at 10.. Went CP walk walk..
Bused to Northpoint.. Walk walk again.. Then went to Yishun Ring Road there, on the way saw felicia and valerie..
Then went to mac eat..
Aft that went to climb hill..
Nice view.. Then trained to Khatib slack.. Aft that went to Sunplaza..
Saw John and his stead.. Stalk them.. Then aft that me and rayner slack at Sunplaza then went home..
Ytd i went to timezone and caught a big minnie mouse worth 19.90 by using 4 dollars..
Damn lucky..
I dont want you to be emo..
The smile must be back..
End here..
_l_7:47 PM
1 week of sch le..
Ya, damn busy..
Maths teacher didnt came,
Then in el, mdm azizah teached us about summary..
Then followed by some lame clips ms Dimas showed, then recess, then phy damn bored.. Then nxt is mt.. Damn fun.. Aft sch went to chongpang to eat with hk,jer,jh,rayner.. Then hk and jh went home, then jer, rayner and i went to slack at blk 115c in chongpang..
Went to 16 storey for fun and unexpectedly found a nice view..
Uploaded photos..
See see!! I gt all mr men!!
I did it.. Yea..
_l_7:03 PM
Damn it!!
Nth much happen today..
Erm except last period got suicide run then was kinda blur..
I thought three round is very short so i sprint all the way..
Then was very tired..
Aft sch go slack again..
Then quite weird that when i stare at lower sec from other school, they will walk away..
I finally completed something..
All ten of it.. Yea..
Maybe i won't avoid le..
Coz its unavoidable..
So yea.. And my mt teacher is damn cute!!
_l_7:23 PM
Im left home alone..
Till midnite.. Diao.. Just reached home.. Today was boring.. Kenna caught be Mdm Azizah for hair..
Then was sent to Auntie Gwen..
So i lied to Auntie Gwen that i was caught for finger nails.. So don't need to cut hair..
Heaven really love to make fun of people.. Lets avoid each other then..
Aft sch went to Mac with hk,cy,jer and rayner..
Then went to NP to buy Chem books bt cnt find..
Then went to stalk jer with rayner.. Lols..
Then chatted at playground..
I am growing arrogant with long pants.. Ytd i pushed vina to the ground in the hall.. First time i did that.. Even when he stole my hp last year i also never hit him..
Damn it.. Someone seems to ignore me over this i guess..
I wanted to talk to you but vina blocked me.. So i pushed him..
End here.. Of to do homework..
_l_6:14 PM
Sch started..
Then Mr Koh and Mdm Azizah is our Form teacher..
Very damn fierce..
Rules, rules, rules.. Bt Mr Koh quite fun also..
Mdm Azizah very fierce lo..
Bt i really want her to be my EL teacher.. Coz heard she is the best in YSS.. I didn't know that my class is beside hers.. I really tried to avoid.. Bt no matter how hard i tried i still saw you..
Im going crazy..
_l_6:28 PM
Its 2010 already..
Yea.. Ytd went to yio chu kang..
Meet my cousins.. Then go Sakura.. Lols..
Nth to say le.. Going to watch tv..
_l_9:49 PM
