Simplicity' ♥

Woke up at 9 today, then watched tv till 10.30..
Showered and went to Northpoint to meet them..
At th mrt station i saw Alvin from primary school..
From nerd and sissy to man and handsome.. Everyone changed..
Went to meet hongkai,jiahui,jerald and rayner for lunch..
After lunch went to SAFRA played snooker and pool..
Saw my cousin there too.. I can win him in pool win 1 hand..
If there is a chance we should settle it on th table..

Then took cab to northlink for pool again..
After a few round we went to jurong to look for mr ASS..
Went to causeway for dinner.. After that bused home..
On th bus we saw aminur and his camera..

Must one lose something important,
before they learn what is to cherish?
I dont want to make th same mistake ever again..
I hate rain.. Makes people pissed off easily..

_l_9:34 PM

Does it feel good to win?
Of coz it does..
What about losing? How would you feel?

Most of th time humans would want to win..
I also want to win something..
Whatever is on th line is something we want to win..
What about those who lose?
How would they feel?
Would they smile? Or would they cry?

Winning and losing, winners and losers..
Everybody is a loser, there are no winner..
Be it sport, studies, fight, games..
Im th biggest loser in everything and anything..

_l_6:00 AM

Quiet day.. Perhaps th rain silenced everything around me..
Holidays have started, idk if i should be happy about it..
Time goes slowly, yet fast.. 1 month is quite long in fact..
Alot of people hate this school, th rules and teachers..
I also hates th school.. What to do? I choosed it as my first choice years ago..
I have no regrets as my friends are here..

_l_5:06 PM

i want to let go yet i'm still struggling.. I threw it away yet it still came back to haunt me..
Everybody has their fair shares of woes.. Humans have feelings that make us vulnerable..
Pathetic right, im still controlling my emotions.. My aunt is trying tio keep me at home most of th time..
Four walls surrounding you.. Wow.. And i must be back by 5p.m. Even lower sec get to stay till damn late..
Does staying out late means that you are bad? Why cant i have more freedom.. Human rights..
Th last time i said this to my family they said till im still young.. Nvm.. I just follow their LAW..
Since its just a matter of time i will become antisocial, for years to come..

Nvm, just obey their wishes.. I easy going.. Look at th bright side.. I could take a nap..
Thats my personal worry..
Who wants to go out during th holidays?? Im free for 4 days only.. Booking of me is available..
Lol.. Promoting myself..

_l_10:12 PM

Went to SAFRA yesterday, had 2 games of snooker with Rayner, Jerald, HongKai and JiaHui..
Both HongKai and JiaHui got their ring.. Couples, Rings and Relationships..
I kinda shun from all these.. Lately im planning on what to do for th June holidays..
Wasting time rotting as usual maybe.. Im very Antisocial recently..
Gosh, maybe sitting with Xavier affected me… greatly..

_l_6:13 PM

Got back my physics and mt paper today.. My physics did quite badly but overall i passed..
Then last period got back my mt paper.. I cant believe i scored very well for it.. I thought it was over..
Th paper 2 damn hard but to think i actually score well.. My aunt maybe wont believe it..
Hmm, my mt test pulled me down a little.. Then watched kungfu dunk in class..
Went home after that.. Slept after taking med.. Got flu and headache for th whole day..

If th heart its empty, it means something..
I was immature once, maybe its still th same now..
Looking at th stars, counting th day that has passed..

I dont want to pretend that im really happy..
I dont care what you guys thing..
I dont need people to judge me, if you must then be my guest..
Th most pratical thing i learnt all th time is hiding my emotion..
But am i really happy??!!
Its my turning point now..

_l_7:50 PM

Hey, great news.. I passed my Maths paper 1.. Its my most happiest result among all subjects..
Th reason is because i studied for Maths paper, in fact i spent th whole night revising till 3am..
And it wasnt borderline pass mind you.. Did badly in English even though i have beaten almost 36 people in class..
But im not top, a few people were higher than me.. Though its 67.. But its way behind my usual standard..
I used to score higher than that last time.. But have to admit that there are always alot of people higher than me..

Hahas, i dont want to find excuses for that.. Because it isnt my style to do that..
I flunked SS.. But thankfully i passed chem..
Well, thanks mdm see for providing those revision papers for maths.. It really helped me alot..
Then i want to thank ms tay and mr ASS for teaching me chem.. Mr lek is th main reason i passed POA paper.. Thanks too..
And thanks mr koh for being th best form teacher.. Running up and down for th class..
I hate to say this but, thanks mdm azizah.. Your pointers helped alot..

Wow, it wasnt me alone that make me passed my exams.. Its my teachers..
Okay.. Went to SsC after school for lunch with Jer,Gnv,Rayner,Hongkai and Jiahui..
Jer and Gnv went home, hongkai went out with his sister while me, rayner, jiahui and her sister went to northlink for pool..

After few hours i went home first.. They were still playing.. Then took bus 859..
Saw yingxuan in that bus.. Then alighted at chongpang to meet gary and kenice..
After awhile i went home.. Then th two idiots were irritating..
Zzz.. Th sex talk today was very horny.. They showed th parts in th video.. And they taught us to wear condoms..

Days..

_l_8:46 PM

Woo. . Finally th last paper.. Stress is gone, bottom line..
Tomorrow going to sembawang jelutung cc to play badminton..
Th first fun after weeks of stress.. Phew.. Tired..
Today's paper only lasted for 1hr.. Then by 9 a.m. dismissed by mr koh..
Bused 800 to Northpoint.. Planned to go Mac by too many adults.. So walked to ChongPang Mac..

So went there then lots of yss people there.. Nvm, went to that Mac for 3 years.. Got feeling..
So ate there then called mr ASS to book court..
Tired..

_l_10:03 PM

just now went to play soccer.. But only limit myself to 15 minute..
Played 4 v 4 street soccer.. Played defence role then got rammed 4 times.. Pain as im old liao
This reminds me of someone who is 14 years old today.. Same age as me now..
Makes me feel much younger before i reach 15 in december..
Happy birthday to you.. Stay happy..

Well, poa is killing me.. I think someone is struggling along with me as well..
Its th hot weather that makes me unable to concentrate.. Zzz..
Finally its gonna rain.. Makes me sleepy.. Im finding excuses not to study..
Nvm, im going to study now.. Poa, im coming..

Nowadays my eyes seem to have some problem.. Rayner smses me that he saw rooney in a BEER advertisement days ago..
I read as BEAR advertisement.. Lols..
Then someone smsed me "want to come out now?"
I replied " meat where?" stupid rite..
I even pronouned 'blunder' as 'bladder'.. Funny thing.. Exams make me stress.. No wonder im going crazy..

_l_4:15 PM

Did you see spongebob and patrick in this seafood menu!
I saw th menu near mac on friday..

_l_12:00 PM

These few days i've been studying.. Zzz guaikia mode..
Finally i can get a good night sleep tonight..
Hahas, my thumb still a little numb from writing too much words for th SS paper today..
Dont worry, i wont turn slacker mode just yet.. Still have POA paper 2 and 1 not forgetting th english oral..
Hard work, determination.. Its really tiring to study till midnight..
If i had listened or rather paid attention in class, i wont be burning th midnight oil..

Try posting this way today..
0710 reached canteen as usual..
0740 study notes quickly, every minute counts..
0801 started th SS paper, Omg..
0931 paper ended, thumb damn numb..
1007 walked from side gate to Chongpang, then to drive thru Mac..

Hahas, i watched th spy movie then every mission th spy do th time will be written down..
My finger brushed through th table and i thought i wasnt serious.. Zzz, after i showered my towel touched th wound..
Th wound opened up and blood dripped on th ground.. I was like wth?? Coz i thought it was minor abrasion..
Its been a long time since i bleed.. Zzz.. Hongkai was right, i really bleed..

Weird thing, my finger wasnt pain and my blood is warm.. Which means im not cold-blooded..
To gain people's respect, you have to earn it.. Have i?? I tried to study and gave my best shot..
My best and more.. I fulfilled it.. Maybe being older makes my thinking to be more mature..
I hope that teachers recognise my hard work, hope i proved that im at least trying..
Good luck guys for your mid year.. After th mid year, lets have fun again..
Gonna end this long post..

_l_10:31 PM

tomorrow is finally th big one.. The SS exam.. After that will be POA..
Im scared of SS.. Coz must memorise.. Zzz..
After physic exam went to mac with hongkai, jer and gnv..
Then ate le went back to school.. After that went home..
Showered and slept, woke up by a msg and slept again..
Nowadays study like crazy.. No time to sleep..
I just want to study hard to let mdm azizah have nth to say..

Somebody, someone, somewhere, somehow just dont get it..
Lols.. I am a retard.. Lalas.. Really bored..
Exam really makes me busy, so far, didnt think of someone..
Hahas, im completely healed..
Study time.. Byebye..
Th photo is rooney and his son, kai..
So cutee..

_l_6:48 PM

wow, today had th killer combination.. Maths paper 1 and chemistry on th same day..
Yesterday night study till two plus.. Then very tired in th morning..
Coz maths is th hardest.. Then when i start doing i thought i can get top..
But till th end came a few questions on triangles.. Lols, gg le..
Then went out of class after maths.. Then i got stunned outside..

Study for chem during break.. All last min de..
Tmr still gt mother tongue paper1 and maths 2..
Now gonna study maths 2..
Seriously, i must pass my maths.. I think im begining to like it..
Maths, please be friends with me.. I love you maths..
Lols, i think th digits are making me crazy..

_l_4:54 PM

Zzz, getting MORE and MORE lazy to update...
Shall not talk about lessons, not worth mentioning..
After school went to accompany hongkai for with cdl project..
Then jer and gnv also there.. Then chased jer around th school..
Damn him, stamina so good.. He is not human..

Wait till hongkai finish his work then i went to settle something..
Even my mum say i 学坏了..
Damn pathetic.. She used to say that i很乖..
I rmb every word she said.. Th mum i knew was gone..
She started to believe her friend's crap..
Then some teacher that cant tell th difference from what is rite and what is wrong..
You teachers did it, my mum dont trust me..
Nothing to do is it?? Call parents and spoke lies..

Dear senior teacher,
Thanks for being so mean towards me..
Thanks for showing me you ultra strong ego..
Thanks for making my mum believe your lies..
I disrespect teacher.. Ya i used to, but i have change.. Did you see?? No..
I went to th staff room for th mirror, you told a teacher to hold me..
Wow, you are a great teacher.. Thanks for th lies you told..

I thought my mum would believe me..
Wishful thinking, foolish..
Since you dont trust me then forget it..
Just that my heart hurts..
Imagine th mum you love believe lies than your truth..
I really need some peace..

_l_10:38 PM

well, today was quite fuck up.. Reason?
Mr koh called my aunt coz i skipped lessons..
Nvm, i am not pissed off by that.. But mdm azizah told my aunt i charged my hp in class..
Please, i didnt.. Maybe you are blind.. Making false allegation..
Am i really that pathetic that you have to use such a low life method to saboh me??

Damn..
Th dark path, is th forgotten route..
Just wanna be left alone right now..

_l_11:14 PM

i was quite lucky today.. Something happened.. Hahas..
Recently someone asked me why i have changed this year..
Lols.. Say till my temper like very bad last year.. Sad..
Lock your unhappiness in your heart.. Try slow motion..

Cry, smile, laugh and breathe..
Its up to you really.. Look forward, dont regret..
Life is like a song, th verse is always boring..
But its th build up to a good chorus..

Im 15 this year, gonna get my ic le.. Time to grow up..
By th way, exam _l_ ..

_l_9:17 PM

Writing down every chapter of my life..
Zzz.. I went to watch movie ip man today..
Wow, full house.. Box office should be good..
Th show is about fighting and fighting..

Then went to northpoint walk and walk..
Then someone called me and i saw wayne..
Lols, felt like reunion.. Then thats all..
Gonna play psp on bed?? Got new game..

Btw, sometimes your comment may make someone angry..
So its best to keep your comments to yourself..

_l_12:40 AM

Went to chongpang and met hongkai and jiahui at 8.30..
Took bus to northpoint to meet rayner and went to safra..
Played pool there and we even called mr AsS too..
His skill is rather pathetic..
Hmm, end game at 12.15 and went home..
Reached home at 1..
Uploaded some photos.. Mr AsS dont want me to post his photo.. Zzz..
Happy eleven month to th happy couple.. lols..
Tired..

_l_1:41 AM