Simplicity' ♥

How i wish i could come in your world..
You just turned your back against me..
All th while i'm th stupid one yea..

And to that arrogant guy, continue your lies,
Continue to backstab, act as if you are th victim..
All you want is to prove you're better than me,
Then i admit it, you're better than me..
Thats th result you wanted..

No matter what i do its always my fault..
Nobody will believe me,
I know my post can give you a reason to kp,
Then do it, dont need to act de..
Ya say that im seeking attention,
Go tell all of them that..

Lies that everybody believe, you must been happy..

_l_8:34 PM

Hmm, played pool aft sch with rayner,hk,jh..
We didnt drink beer..
Its just a random photo i took..
And as usual, jerald left with genevieve again..

Sometimes i thought i forgot about her,
But i was just deluding myself that its gone..
Idk how to talk to her, i dont want to be a third party..
Its a dogs manner, its nt my style..

Millions of apology to you, i just cant forget bout her,
I dont want to waste your time as even we are tgt, its nvr th same..
You are very chio, hope you can find someone better..

Love is blind..

_l_7:43 PM

This morning i was very suay..
I think only Rayner, hk, jerald. aunty gwen and mr koh knew why..
Hahas, hmm today i almost fell alsleep during geog and chem lesson..
Then during p.e damn fun..
Physics class damn horny, hahas..

After school went to eat with jerald and rayner, then genevieve came to look for jerald..
Went back to school to buy drinks with rayner, then jerald came..
He left after a while.. So rayner and i slack till 5 plus..
Then went home..

I will never let another teardrop fall..

_l_7:56 PM

unhappy, but what can i do?
The answer, nth..
Anger of being back-stabbed, agony about her trust..
Im damn angry!! Mood back to storm mode..

_l_9:46 PM

Just reached home..
Hmm went to KFC after school with Jerald, hk and rayner..
The food there was below par..
Not expecting it to be tasty also..

Went back school for table tennis..
Went to hall and played with hk..
After a while we went to the third storey and played with rayner, jer and his laopo..
Then Rayner, jerald and his laopo went home..

Left school to buy drinks with hk, then recieved one msg and went up..
Heartbeat racing due to running too much..
Listen to th two ChioBu talking about their fat and bald 'botak' friends..
Marked attendance and left with hk..
Then saw Mr Koh on our way home, walked with him till traffic light..
Thought he will drive today, hahas so fit, he walk worh..

Suddenly my mood changed 360degree..
Hahas, felt like im back in th sec 2 life again, thnx to th two..
During th Sec 2 days, there is both good and bad memories..
Its all in th past le, stay happy..
Purity _l_

_l_7:00 PM

Today had steamboat, then was playing poker cards too,
Hmm, now my face damn hot, a little headache too..
Drank 3 bottles of 4.8 percent volume of alcohol..
I'm not tipsy, just hot.. Mood also not good..
Since yesterday till now..
Forget it, i guess i should open one more bottle before sleeping..
Maybe will help sleep better..

Things i'll never say.

_l_11:10 PM

Lazy to post about today's activities,
Click on Rayner's link if you wanna find out..
He got update..
But dont go to Jerald's blog, because he posted crap..

One heart, one mind,
Zero motivation..
Nth seems to motivate nor spur me recently..
Maybe its because my heart is hardened..
Thanks to an unforgetable experience last year..

_l_12:50 AM

Memories are meant to be forgotten,
No matter how hard i've tried,
You are still there, vividly..

_l_10:05 PM

Met jerald, took mrt to sembawang.. Then went to gnv's house..
Then went there and 'messed' with th poker card..
Went down to a playground, damn thrilling as its dangerous..
Then took alot of photos there.. lols..
Then played badminton for awhile then jh left..
Went to sunplaza with rayner to eat aft jer left with his gnv..
Aft eating, bus-ed to northpoint and saw rasyid there..
Hahas, cant stop disturbing him..
Then walked to chong pang and slack..

Rayner and i agreed that some people is damn arrogant in what they are doing..
Since you are th best, then we will be glad to see you fail one day..
Nobody is perfect, nt me, nt him and it is definately nt 'you' either..
Just admit th damn fact and shut that mouth up..

_l_12:33 AM

Tmr school reopen le, which means i have to complete mdm azizah's homework..
Very bored at home.. Rotting.. Any ideas on wad to do?
Later going out.. So maybe later post again..

_l_9:41 AM

Things are left as regret,
Just a few minutes and it will really cost you that much..
Zzz, practically, i my relatives are not as scary as i think, except for 1 guy with an arrogant attitude..

He snatched my 2 year old baby cousin's red packet, and somemore he is the same age as me.. Shameless to take kids red packet, so i glared at him lo..
Then after that told my cousin about it. Then he return..
Totally ruined new year..

_l_8:15 PM

Valentine day is coming in less than 2 hrs le..
Hahas, so as Chinese New Year..
Tomorrow got alot of relatives to meet, all thanks to my GreatGrandmother for giving birth to 10 childrens..
Sure got a few act de, coz they damn 'free' de..
So have to be a good boy, if not they confirm will talk behind my back de..
Next time i should put a basket at the door stating 'please kindly put your Ang Pows and fck off quietly' sign..
Great idea yea..

Every year those elder's will say this 'wah, sec 3 le ar? Grow up so fast ar? Give you 1 ang pow, hope you grow up faster' ..
Normally they will say that as we have completely, i repeat, completely nothing to talk about..
Then they will act till they know you so well..
Every year also this pattern, im very tired with this pattern liao, predictable..

If only you are beside me..

_l_10:09 PM

14 february..
Zzz.. Is coming..
I hate it.. No special reason..
Class won first in decoration,
Mdm azizah must been very happy.. Zzz.. Lols..

Should have woke up at 5 to say goodbye.. Stupid pig, i kept sleeping..

I hate people to misunderstand me, but i don't really bother to explain.. Because even if i do, you also don't trust me..

_l_8:46 PM

Very hyper..
Today rayner, yh and i slack in school with MDM Azizah..
Valentine day is coming..
Hahas.. Going to spend it with red packets..
End here..
Short post..

Waiting..

_l_9:25 PM

Super good mood today..
Hahas.. Except from morning when wangwen kp me..
Xavier complained and that wangwen choose to believe him than me..
After school went somewhere..
Hahas.. Coz nth to do..
Then 7 went to chongpang meet yh and went to kfc..
Then went to playground coz he wanted to use wi-fi..
Then like very hard to use lo..
Just came home.. So post..
Hahas.. Valentine day coming..
Yea, alone i guess..
Suddenly nt scared or Ngyl..
Maybe i dont feel like respecting him anymore.. We may have disappointed you, but you disappointed us first..
DM must act isit? When we were in sec1 you nt like that de lo..

_l_9:43 PM

Bad day..
Xavier complained again..
He said that we disturb him and yh tripped him.. Then Mr Koh told him to take a rest.. You only ran one round and your timing is 7 mins.. Please, its the first round only.. What if the actual 2.4 you run under 21 mins?
Pathetic joke..
After school went to help decorate the class with yh, rayner, eileen, finley..
Moments later, yh left..
Then 5 plus like that went home..
Diverted her call to someone's house.. Nt i divert de..
Zzz bad mood..
Damn angry, yet sad..
Forget it.. You lied again..
Just now said you want to tell me de, then now..
Speechless..

_l_9:12 PM

I miss you, yea.
Should have told you that ytd,
Bt nvm.. Tmr also can..
Formal post..

Today, Xavier complained to Mr Tan that we harassed and cornered him. I feel down from the chair moments later as i was busy looking at someone outside.
What a funny yet embarrassing moment for me.
After school, we went to AMK Hub and ate. We also collected Jerald's ring from Couple Lab.
In the taxi, the uncle there was joking all the way with vulgarities. I went for table tennis and followed by home.

Zzz.. Quite formal..
hahas.. Omg!!
Stunned

_l_8:02 PM

The most romantic song in the world can change loneliness to love..
No one can know the future, just leave it the way it is..
I wish to hear the most romantic song in this world..
With you, of coz..
Smile..
90..

_l_10:04 PM

Long Post..
After School went to canteen, help hk, yh, yx to convince mr siva to let them join table tennis..
Yes, i manage to do it, with some lies,, hehe..

Then went to baobei's house,
Make her laugh and she bully me somemore.. Kick, punch, pinch..
Wow.. I went through those pain..
Went to Nanyang Poly,
Then Mr Koh called my handphone and asked wad happen ytd between me,rayner,yh and xavier.. As Xavier said we sort of 'stalk and bully' him..
Then after a while took cab back to yss.. Found Mr Koh and went to his office to talk about what happen ytd..

Irritated as its wrong, or rather a mistake in sec 1 '08', a huge mistake that happened..
He acted in front of mr ang, when mr ang walked past two weeks ago during maths lesson, Xavier took out POA books and pretended study.. Funny right?
Maths lesson take out POA..

Rayner asked Mr Koh a great question just now,
'Xavier knew he would be bullied in yss, why didn't he go to special school?'
Mr Koh replied, ' if you have a son who is like Xavier, would you sent him to special school?'
I know all parents protect their child, but overprotective can only harm them, just like Xavier, who cant define bully and joking..

End case,
I haven't forgot about you,
Its just that it takes more than courage to tell you that..
But well, i lost, my heart to you..
S M I L E..
Went though emptiness with the help from Vivian 'Laogong'.. Lols..
She entertain and hit me for the whole week leh.. Most of the time bully me.. Hahas.. Keep my time occupied and not thinkin about her..

_l_7:26 PM

Why jealousy came out again!?
How i wish things are easy,
To disappear straight away,
Zzz.. I want pain to wake me up..

I met xavier's dad today,
Talked terms about not bullying him.. So settle le.. Tired..

I'm scared, i'm scared of rejection..
Silent, makes me think of you,
Memory, its killing me..
Holding on, makes me cry.

_l_8:30 PM

If human don't have feelings,
No sorrow, No tears..
When i see you, just let me pretend i don't care..
My heart has been gone with you since the day..
Just let me keep a last part of memory with me..
I will just disappear in my own lonely world, without you..

Damn it, the stupid feeling came back again..
Coz why? Imagine seeing someone you like 10 times a day..
Even after school when i went up the stairs i saw her.. After i put my bag in the library, i went down to look for her.. Too late..
I hate myself.. WHY WHY WHY is it always too late to regret? WHY!
I screw it up again..
Very tired, helped mdm azizah decorate the class.. Why it must be me to paste the wall.. Very scary de.. Then eileen and finley can do the easy job..
Rayner the easiest, just take a less that 1kg box to staff room..
Then jer keep on disappearing with his baby..
Envious of him..

_l_8:42 PM

Home now..
Today morning i unzip xavier's bag, then he complain to mr koh about it.. I kena scolded by mr koh.. Cb la hor.. Damn gay, small things must complain.. After school went for grandpa death anniversary.. Zzz.. Sad day yea..

I told myself again and again i won't care, its none of my business.. But well, i can't do it..
Lies came out again, when i said i don't give a damn..

_l_7:01 PM

Just reached home..
Today is a tired day..
Finley and Eileen locked Jer,Clarence and i outside of the class during decoration.. Evil.. Then that Eileen did something stupid.. Not going to mention it..
When i kicked the door and scolded finley and eileen very loudly.. Baobei saw it.. Diao..
Btw, i made xavier damn angry today.. He keep shouting 'stop it' Oops..
After school went to slack with rayner and clarence..
After that went to eat..
Tired day

_l_7:26 PM